I am fairly new here and hope I am posting this in the right thread... As I said in the welcome thread, My name is Sarah and My boyfriend, Paul and I have been together 5 months.

We live together after dating very briefly only to discover ourselves at a complete crossroad. We met on an online dating site and during our 1st date, he explained to me that he had just lost his wife of 7 years in May of this year and that he was back in the dating scene because he was a "survivalist" and felt that he could be ready to start dating again.

Ok, well moving on to this past week, He had gotten news that he had just lost a family member that he considered his "favorite" and it is bringing back memories of how he lost his wife... and now it just feels like he is pushing me away completely. Part of me feels like ever since I admitted to considering cheating with an ex because ever since before we got the news about his aunt, the intimacy in our relationship had all but died. But, I feel we have somewhat overcome that and I have done just short of everything I can to prove to him that while it was an idea... it was one that would never come to pass. I love him, I want to be there... but, I just don't know how much I am willing to take before I throw it all away and wash my hands of the whole deal.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.